HOLA!!! Qt is dead and gone. She was an evil bitch and should never be remembered. Seriously. But it's kinda good in the sense that I swore that I'm gonna study every single day from Monday onwards. Allowing 2 days of slacking so I won't end up in a mental hospital.
Believe it or not, I'm not doing anything at all. Except for Youtube that's playing some strange playlist, nothing's on right now. Don't you love it, when you have nothing essential on your list that has to be done, no obligations, no responsible, no plans. Someone comes along and offers something and you just say 'yeah sure leggo'. It's been like awhile since I'm allowed to do this. For the past week, it's just guilt and anxiety whenever I decide on a night out.
Spent the whole afternoon and evening in the heart of the city. Doing... nothing much. But that's just the fun of it. I like everything spontaneous, that's what I realised. I hate planning ahead. Like, it's in the future, what for you spend all of today thinking about it. You'll just keep missing out on the present, all because of the future you're so obsessed about.
Once in awhile, we've really got to stop thinking, stop planning, stop worrying about what that doesn't even exist. Do things you genuinely want to do. Not out of pressure or expectations. Things don't really have to make sense sometimes, they don't have to abide to rules or the norm, they don't have to be accepted. Close your eyes and just go with it, cuz that's how free someone should be.
I apologize if I sound a little wasted tonight, but I probably am. Due to the sudden drop in my stress level and the sudden rise of happiness. Laughing till I'm left breathless, strolling around carefree... Why can't every day be like that? Sometimes, I wonder what I'm doing here, all trying to ace everything and look knowledgeable so that the society will like me more IN THE FUTURE. If the society is one that judges you by a piece of cheap paper, it's not a society worth living in. Cuz however hard you work, there will be people that are smarter and better, you'll never feel truly appreciated.
They say it's a cruel world, because they were born on one part of it and stayed there forever. Stop seeking and you'll find; stop trying to impress and you will.
I apologize if I sound a little wasted tonight, but I probably am. Due to the sudden drop in my stress level and the sudden rise of happiness. Laughing till I'm left breathless, strolling around carefree... Why can't every day be like that? Sometimes, I wonder what I'm doing here, all trying to ace everything and look knowledgeable so that the society will like me more IN THE FUTURE. If the society is one that judges you by a piece of cheap paper, it's not a society worth living in. Cuz however hard you work, there will be people that are smarter and better, you'll never feel truly appreciated.
They say it's a cruel world, because they were born on one part of it and stayed there forever. Stop seeking and you'll find; stop trying to impress and you will.
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