December

December started well. Very well. Almost perfect. 

The boys just returned to 'civilization' this afternoon after their 5-days stay here in Ipoh. I'd be lying if I say that I don't miss having them around. Lame jokes and harmless insults when I'm driving, sick inappropriate movies past midnight, screams and facepalms as they play FIFA, turning the house into a war zone as they hide in random corners with a Nerf gun in hand...

I think their presence is the only way I can drive out at 11pm and return after midnight, go beyond 140kph on the North-south highway, leave the house without reporting my destination to my parents, laugh my guys out till 2am... 

Countless first times through out these 5 days. I think their return home will affect me more than any of them. 

Now life is back to normal, although I don't really know what 'normal' means anymore. Life is once again waiting and looking forward to the next trip, for more friends to be free for me... I don't get why my holidays are NEVER in line with anyone else'. For the first time in 2013, I'm thoroughly free. Like FREE, and people tell me their finals are in a week time. 

I guess it's time for deep breaths and constructive thoughts. Goals and resolutions, decisions and plan-makings. 

I thought I'd feel more free and relieved, but I guess I really don't like to be alone. 2013 is definitely the year with the least alone time. There are always people around me, be it in college and in the apartment. I'm only alone (sometimes, not guaranteed) when I go to gym. So I really thought I'd appreciate this break from everything and everyone and actually having time for myself. But the moment the boys left I wanted them back. 

Honestly, I encouraged my mom's decision to ban my sister's competition trip to Thailand cuz it means that I have someone with me for the following 2 weeks. And of course I'm worried for her safety and all. Okay I'm such a selfish person. But she'd probably understand how I feel cuz she calls me to blame my being in KL during her school holidays cuz boredom was really killing her inside out. It's the same situation. 

December to-do's:

- Make dad's birthday present. 

{ I desperately need some ideas. I make him something EVERY year and right now I really don't know what is left to make.}

- New Year's resolutions

- UCAS

- Do something with the guitar

{ ie. get a capo and cut my nails so I can press the fingerboard}

- Memorise Turkish March and relearn my running notes

{ie. cut my nails so they don't create extra sound effects on the keys}

- Reverse park and parallel park the car properly

{ without screaming and looking at the person sitting beside me helplessly. An Indian uncle actually stopped behind my car to tell me that I still have space to reverse this morning when I went to get breakfast.} 

- Meet people

{ SOCIALIZE!!!}

- Repair damaged relationships, enhance the others

{ So 2014 starts with love.}

- Learn to solve my own problems without having to drag others into the situation.

{ A very very bad habit. I always thought that if I whined and complained to other people then at least I won't be alone when the truth is they're innocent and have all the right to not want to listen to my rants.}

- Think.

{ Matters of the heart, priorities, wants and needs...}

- Read

... to be continued.

... or maybe not.