Let it go

Six more days to the end of 2013. So I guess it's about time for me to do my annual recap post, a brief trip down memory lane to conclude the year.

2013 was and is all about changes and first-times, acceptance and moving on. It was tough and simple at the same time, both challenging and fun. Well, I tend to only recall the enjoyable moments when I look back, I guess that's good in a way. I wish I could say that this year was so full of joy that I can't remember the last time I cried, but I honestly can't. The tears and laughters are almost equal, tears being a metaphor for sadness and frustration and not literally tears cuz then my life would look like some tragedy, but I won't go into the dull and sad part because you deserve so much more than depressing life stories.

I think the first-times are what I adore most about this year. The excitement for doing something I've never done before, the satisfaction when I do it right. I suppose it's what that keeps everything interesting and fresh, it gives me things to look forward to. Then come the adventures and trial-and-errors, mistakes and lessons learnt. I personally don't think that mistakes or failures are such big deals to mourn about, but they're nonetheless scary and intimidating at times. But again, it's because of the downs that the happiness of success taste so sweet.

One of the best lessons of 2013- When you really care about someone, family or friends or something beyond that, you genuinely wish them the best. If you don't, then maybe you don't love them as much as you think you do. And hence perhaps you're not so worthy of their love in return after all.

From The Perks of Being a Wallflower- 'We accept the love we think we deserve.'

2013 taught me a great deal about appreciation. Being away from home, having another family that looks after me and vice versa, meeting so many new people and having to adapt to never ending changes, I've learnt that nothing, as in NOTHING, in the world ever stays permanent. Forever really doesn't exist, most of the times. I realized that I own nothing, because nothing will me forever mine. Therefore I've found the necessity to notice the good in things while it last. Carpe diem. 

Through out the year I've grown, though my parents still treat me like a child, and they probably always will. Despite being tougher, having to deal with so much more, there will always be a part of me that still skips around the garden, talking to animals, making wishes when I see a rainbow... Being able to be a child at times is a blessing, I think. It's a gift, a luxury, it's priceless.

I have high expectations of 2014, and I plan to be impressed.

So before the new year comes, I'd like to say Thank You, to everyone who had been around for the past 12 months, and those who hadn't. In short, just every single soul I know, or even those that I don't. What a year, it had been. Hugs and kisses to all of you wonderful people, and may the new year be full of joy and blessings.