12 hours to 2014. There's nothing much to start over this January.
All of 2013 (the studying and working hard part) and half of 2014 is practically directed towards September of 2014. Again with me investing my present for the future that isn't even existing yet. Sometimes I really ask myself why.
Went back to college to deal with university, to deal with the future, yesterday morning. And boy, the future seems difficult. Or maybe it's just me being too satisfied with the comfy status quo. The truth is, if it wasn't for my parents, mainly my mom, nagging and lecturing me everyday, I wouldn't have the energy or the guts to start looking into stuff like this. Although I barely have any choices to choose from. At least now I know my forecast allows me to just apply without further screening and short listing for universities.
It's my second New Year's Eve away from home. Of course a part of me wants to be lying on the couch with the rest of my family, seeping sparkling juice and watching the rest of the world celebrate the new year, and probably falling asleep after Sydney and Tokyo's fireworks go off, like always. It is supposedly my last NYE in the country for the next 4 years, maybe. Part of me wants to be in the city around my friends, and for once actually bidding goodbye to this year and celebrate the coming one.
I don't really know what I feel about 2013 and 2014. I suppose 2013 was quite kind to me, and I'm thankful for all the lessons it brought me. All I am sure of is that I have hopes for 2014. It is basically the last bit of my teenage years. It doesn't have to be crazy and insane. I just need it to be memorable and happy and worth every second of my life. Okay those are not simple conditions, but yeah...
And of course, for A2 to be satisfying. I am practically begging for my A* AA (and another A hopefully) so my mom wouldn't have the heart to throw me to Singapore with her reason being it's not worth it since I didn't get into a top 10 school in UK. And no I do not want to spend 4 years in Singapore although the chances of me working and staying in other countries are higher than studying in UK. I don't even know if I'll be alive to be able to enjoy the days after my degree if I happen to study in Singapore.
I can't believe I'm only open to so little choices, while the world is so huge and full of probabilities. And right now, I don't have one single confirmed choice. Okay let me break it down:
-UK: expensive, but has the best schools, can't stay and work, but it's considered quite safe
-Singapore: eww... But cheap because it's easy to get a scholarship for my course, and near to home, get to work overseas
-Canada: it's half a world away, cheaper, probability of landing a job and PR is like really high, it's freezing cold
-Japan: language -.-, I like japan
-Korea: refer to Japan
-Australia: I am prejudice against this country due to personal reasons, expensive as hell, not worth the money cuz most of the schools aren't even on the table
-NZ: nice place, but boring, far, and still not worth it
-America: SAT is a bitch and I'm a coward
-Germany (and the rest of the EU): language, and they don't want extra engineers anymore
See! My life is tough.........
Oh well. It's the last day of the year. It's support to be really joyous and full of hopes.
Till next year! :)
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