You're the song my heart is beating to

This song is so perfect for the movie. 

People probably won't believe me when I tell them that I literally cried every single time I read the Fault in Our Stars and watch the trailer. Every single time. That I can practically remember all the significant quotes. Well, most parts of them.

And my favourite: 

'I'm in love with you, and I'm not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things... I know that the sun will swallow the only earth we will ever have, and I'm in love with you.'

'You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world, but you do have some say in who hurts you and I like my choice.'

'Love is keeping the promise anyway.'

'I would be a privilege having my heart broken by you.'

'You gave me a forever withing numbered days, and I'm grateful for it.'

I know they aren't perfectly accurate, I suck at memorizing things. But yeah. I can remember words that mean nothing to me personally, that is how much this book has affected me. I'm aware of how mainstream it has become since they started filming the movie, but I just can't stop myself from being obsessed with it, because it's one of the truest love stories I've read. It taught me that true love doesn't have to be heart-stopping, it doesn't have to be luxurious, and it's perfectly okay to not always have butterflies in your stomach. Because, feelings are so much more than superficial romance that melts hearts, or approving nods and envy from the rest of the world. 

And mind you, I've always been a chick-flick person, and I still am. 

The Fault in Our Stars taught me that a road worth taking doesn't have to be one with a trophy and champagne visible at the finishing line, because most of the time, we don't even end up at the finishing line. Most of the time, we find another road branching out along the way and we would even find more meaning in the changed path.

I don't know how I'm going to survive the movie. The cast, to me, is almost exactly like that I've imagined. And given that I know that the depressing ending is inevitable. I'll cry a river.