HAPPY BIRTHDAY WOEI CONG!

I know you'll see this so yeah. You made my entry title. Be proud. ;) It's like being on the front page of the daily papers. Or Vainty Fair Magazine or Four Four Two.

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I'm currently in my room sitting on a small pink Ikea stool, feeling kind of frustrated cuz my home's internet sucks and TVD isn't loading fast enough. So I figured I'll just do a quick recap of the previous week.

Last week was kind of rough, for my brain. The examination board got really screwed up and I don't even know what to do right now. It's like all the stepping stones across the river are gone just in one day, and I'm stuck, and all the solutions are either really hard or far or requires me to get out of my comfort zone. 

And initially I thought coming home means finding a possible solution to it all, but honestly, everything just got way tangled up. And instead of solving the problem, it became more like debating and playing poker with my mom. It's like she expects me to figure things out by myself, but she wants to comment on every single suggestion I come up with. And in the end, my idea is just either naive or hopeless. And when I let her make the decisions, I'm too lazy and too dependent on her. What kind of logic is this?

The truth is, I have no idea what I want, or should, do next. I don't want to leave, I don't want to restart and adapt again, I don't want things to change, but I'm really uncomfortable with risking too. I don't want to insist on something and watch it go wrong, again. I'll go mad if it happens again. It's really tiring...

But despite the college crisis thing, last week was kind of fun. And I had the awesomest Friday yesterday. And it started out with two boring hours of Physics lab. So I guess the best situations can have terrible introductions too. The way we can spin around the basement for ages and still stay cool, and laugh so hard with a full stomach until we wanted to puke in the car... How can anyone just let go of everything and leave like that?

Hiking session with  my parents tomorrow morning, I guess it's my final chance to actually find a solution that everybody agrees on. Fingers crossed!!!

I don't feel like sleeping yet but I'm getting a little hungry and there's chocolate banana cake in the fridge downstairs.