Autumn ends and winter follows

The leaves fall and then comes the snow

Its been a long time, since I really really think about my past, and despite all the tears and sadness, there's still a huge tinge of sweetness

The lessons I've learnt over the years.

I used to look at wealth and accomplishment like they are basic necessity in life, but then I realised that its just a stupid rule humans gave themselves. Its dumb. I mean, you can't really live for 80 years just for the wealth and fortune. There must be something more valuable than that. Valuable. Not expensive. What's the point of earning and using so much when everything will become nothing but dust when we leave?

Mom told me this afternoon that there's this plastic surgeon who died of lung cancer at age 40+. He was filthy rich, and he once said that true happiness is driving his Ferarri to visit his friends during CNY. I think that's just sad, if that's the maximum happiness he ever felt.

You drive a sports car, and then what? People go WOW and OMG and AHHH and then what? Half of them become green-eyed monsters and the other half wonder what you did in your previous life, and then what? Its just hollow jealousy, and touch consider that true happiness.

There's nothing wrong with wanting to be rich. I want that too. But when you put wealth on the top of your importance pyramid, its dangerous, cuz you'll forget how to live, how to love and how to be loved. And without living, loving and getting loved, its not real happiness you're getting. Its just a temporary feeling that you're above everyone. That's just wanting everyone to look at you and want what you have. That's just selfish.

I didn't understand that a few years ago. Looking back, I realise how shallow I was, like I felt I was cool to have huge dreams when I was actually really dumb.

Frankly, I've learnt all these because of someone. Im not gonna mention names but I owe him tons . All this while, through ups and downs, he'll always be there to make fun of me and make sure my sadness transform into annoyance or rage. You're awesome like that and thank you, so much for being such a great person.

I never knew such simple things could bring so much happiness and joy. I never knew such pure feelings of gratitude and love existed. I've told you those three words plenty of times, but I know you were probably to oblivious to know that I meant every one of them.