Not everything that counts can be counted

And vice versa.

I can't believe I'm sick again. Like AGAIN. Gosh, what's wrong with me?

Lately, it's all about the future and expectations and goals. I thought I knew what I wanted, but it turns out that what I thought I wanted may not be what I really want. That sucks. I mean, I'm not even one of those with ridiculously high expectations. I just want something I'll like, something I can do for like 30 years minimum, something that can earn me a living (preferably more than just a living), something I have passion for. But passion, is such a complicated word. And sometimes, we really have to think twice before turning our passions into our daily work. It's a risk, a huge one. Cuz I'd want to keep my passion for leisure.

I'm trying to choose between Veterinary Medicine and Medicine. God I wish I don't have to eliminate either of them. Cuz you see, Medicine was my childhood dream, since the day I realised that I'd have to work one day. I didn't really have to think or consider, cuz it's like my purpose for being here. Haha that sounds scary but yeah...

BUT animals are (kind of, I guess...) my passion. Since I realised the difference between a dog and a cat. To me, humans are pretty well cared for, and we have the power to seek for medical attention and treatment when we need it, but animals are so so helpless, and they deserve so much more than what they're getting now. Humans are too arrogant and self-contained to invest in animals, but face it, humans can NEVER live without animals, but animals will be happier off without humans. We suck ttm.

BUT BUT, humans need help too lol. WHICH IS WHY, if I ever become a doctor, I'll specialize as an intensivist, for people who desperately need help. And they won't really get to argue or complain cuz they're practically halfway into death. Lol that's mean I know. That's like the only field I'll want to specialize in.

I think I'm going to list down all the pros and cons and decide with a clear mind wth. But again, it's so much more than drawing a chart... Like, even if you grant me a full scholarship to study business in Cambridge, I'll still stay here and go to IMU. No hesitation, in a heartbeat.

I know I might sound really dumb and naive, but it's true. It's how my mind works anyway. Cuz when I try to picture my future, I don't picture a huge house with sport cars and swimming pools. I picture my enthusiasm to start every single day, knowing that there's so much awesomeness lying ahead of me. Of course I want to be rich and blah blah blah, but what's wealth when you don't even like your life right?