Just came back from a very spicy lunch, and yeah I was sweating like I've ran for half an hour. Physics 2, to me was quite doable. I was smiling to myself as I exited the exam room, and then people started to question on everything and I'm not so sure anymore. Sometimes, I wish I could just block out whatever comments that come in my way and just let it go. It's all gone and done with. No rewinds, hence no regrets, but I just HAVE to go stick my heads into conversations, and recall whatever I wrote on the answer booklet. I think I have the worst self-control anyone can ever have.
This week was plain. It wasn't exactly dry, nor was it half as exciting as the normal college days, but it was quite peaceful and pleasant. At least I didn't overthink or overanalyse anything. The days were simple, the nights short, sleeps uninterrupted. I know I sound like some old woman living in a cottage in some village, but yeah. Basically my week was well spent with books and knowledge and drama series.
I'm counting down to next weekend, and of course December. Next weekend being my visit home after more than a month since my last trip. I miss home, a lot. I don't even know where to start. And December, is just December. I don't even know if we are going on a family vacay and I don't really care either. I just want December to be here. We all deserve a real break after an eleven months long roller coaster. I know the view had been pretty spectacular, but I really need to feel the ground, to stop and take a breathe or two before I go on board again.
*Thoughts:
We don't always have to know things we don't know. Sometimes things are better left unclear and unanalysed. I know this is very unconvincing coming from me, someone who just has to explain everything, but I've learnt. If things are beautiful the way they are, leave it be, savor it, remember it. Don't try to put too much thoughts into the scenario, don't try to draw a conclusions, because you really don't need to. And conclusions might not be as important as you see them to be.
Coming up next week, Chemistry 2 and 7 hours of A2 Biology and home.
Cheers,
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