Planning to study and ended up watching Pretty Little Liars and now blogging while I listen to all the covers I've missed out on. This has to stop happening. Trials is in less than a month, I'm not even half prepared. Then I see my cousin, doing the same programme I'm doing right now, same intake, just one different subject, and he's studying harder than a final year med school student. I feel so guilty just looking at him.
Last Sunday when I came back to KL, all I couldn't think of is the long long week ahead. And the days felt like forever. 1 hour classes felt like years, but then it's already Thursday again. How I wish I could just fast forward to December when I have all the freedom in the world. I swear, I'll go to somewhere, anywhere, with a bunch of people I'm really comfortable with and have fun like nothing else matters.
The last time I had this was 3 years ago. It was the best feeling ever. EVER. I didn't take any calls, I didn't go on the internet. I basically moved my life to Japan for 2 weeks. I came back as a different person, to a different life and I really wanna do that again. I want a trip where the only people you are in contact with are those you met along the way and the ones you went with. A trip where you don't have to give two craps about what's going on in the world. I know it's really hard to get something like that, but I really wish I'd have the chance to do it again.
Sometimes, you just need a clean break from reality and go live in a fairytale for a little while and be a little more self centered. Forget what the world expects from you and focus on what you want for yourself, genuinely.
One of my favourite pictures, at my favourite place in the entire world.
Man I miss this castle.
I'd be a janitor there if it means I get to stare at it everyday. I wanna celebrate my 21st birthday there, get married there, bring all my kids there and have them fall in love with it too.
Well, enough of day (or night) dreaming. Reality is, I have a really important exam that practically defines my future in 2 months, and I can't afford to let anything go wrong. Come to think of it, it all makes sense. I need to study, to get into some really good university, where I'll meet the love of my life and he'll bring me to Disneyland on my 21st birthday. I get employed with some really impressive pay once I graduate and earn enough money for a wedding in Disneyland and I SHALL LIVE HAPPILY EVER AFTER.
So hence, I need to study. So I can get married in Disneyland. It all makes perfect sense.
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