Autumn ends and winter follows

The leaves fall and then comes the snow

Its been a long time, since I really really think about my past, and despite all the tears and sadness, there's still a huge tinge of sweetness

The lessons I've learnt over the years.

I used to look at wealth and accomplishment like they are basic necessity in life, but then I realised that its just a stupid rule humans gave themselves. Its dumb. I mean, you can't really live for 80 years just for the wealth and fortune. There must be something more valuable than that. Valuable. Not expensive. What's the point of earning and using so much when everything will become nothing but dust when we leave?

Mom told me this afternoon that there's this plastic surgeon who died of lung cancer at age 40+. He was filthy rich, and he once said that true happiness is driving his Ferarri to visit his friends during CNY. I think that's just sad, if that's the maximum happiness he ever felt.

You drive a sports car, and then what? People go WOW and OMG and AHHH and then what? Half of them become green-eyed monsters and the other half wonder what you did in your previous life, and then what? Its just hollow jealousy, and touch consider that true happiness.

There's nothing wrong with wanting to be rich. I want that too. But when you put wealth on the top of your importance pyramid, its dangerous, cuz you'll forget how to live, how to love and how to be loved. And without living, loving and getting loved, its not real happiness you're getting. Its just a temporary feeling that you're above everyone. That's just wanting everyone to look at you and want what you have. That's just selfish.

I didn't understand that a few years ago. Looking back, I realise how shallow I was, like I felt I was cool to have huge dreams when I was actually really dumb.

Frankly, I've learnt all these because of someone. Im not gonna mention names but I owe him tons . All this while, through ups and downs, he'll always be there to make fun of me and make sure my sadness transform into annoyance or rage. You're awesome like that and thank you, so much for being such a great person.

I never knew such simple things could bring so much happiness and joy. I never knew such pure feelings of gratitude and love existed. I've told you those three words plenty of times, but I know you were probably to oblivious to know that I meant every one of them.

Forever going with the flow

But you're friction...

I just read a really really hopeless romance novel last night. In like 2 hours, cuz it was so damn hopeless. I cried like nobody's business, laughed like my sister wasn't sleeping in the same room and cursed as if I was living that story. Then this morning, when I woke up, I still had it stuck in my head. I didn't know why, but I sorta figured out when I was brushing my teeth (*blushes), that I could really relate, personally, to the story.

The story is mainly about a girl, who fell for this boy, but didn't dare to believe in what she felt. She had been hurt and used, hence she lost trust in humanity, refusing to let anyone step into her heart, or let anyone take control of her life. 

I mean, I ain't have no boy right now, but I can relate her to the other parts of my life. The too scared to be committed part, cuz people change, too much. And after a few times of ups and downs, I've decided to stop being the nice sensitive one, and be nice to myself, always putting myself on the top of the pyramid. I'm too fed up of hoping and expecting, and getting nothing but disappointment afterwards. It sucks, a lot, to daydream one second, smiling and making silent plans, and the next, having to erase everything because of somebody or a situation that popped up. I prefer to rely on myself, just myself, cuz then I'd know what to expect and what to not expect according to my ability. At least I have control of my feelings. 

And no, Im not a control-freak. It's not hatred or rage or anything at all, just a little rule I've set for myself since... I don't know when. So yeah, a little piece of what I really think.

Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you

I would be lying if I said I hadn't neglect my hamsters, but I still love them, even when they were sick and ugly...

You've probably guessed this, but all three of my hamsters were found dead in their cages just half and hour ago. The COD is still unknown, but since all of them died together, our hypothesis is poison, virus or... starvation. The last time I replenished their foodbowls was last weekend. Yeah, about 9 days ago. I know you're thinking that it's 100% starvation now, but trust me, I normally fill their bowls once a week. Just 2 days of delay, I don't believe that they'll starve to death in just 2 days. Hamsters are awesome in storing food, 2 days is nothing to them. But as guilty as I'm feeling now, I really wish it was starvation, then it means that Looney is not in any danger. I'm dead worried about him now...

So, RIP to those 3 little boys, they're probably in heaven by now. They were the cutest hamsters I've ever seen or owned, NONE of them ever bit me, although their mother was fierce like hell. They were so human-friendly they could fall asleep on my palm. 

So here's a photo tribute to them.

All pictures are taken on this year's mooncake festival.

To the moon and back.

<3

Turn on the Love

I used to hate PJ lessons. No, I still hate them now. But again, not liking something and being told you'll never have the chance to do it again is two totally different situations. In this case, it's bittersweet. Sweet in the sense that I'll never need to feel sticky and smelly for about 5 periods of school before I can go jump into my shower, bitter in the sense that... Everything with a 'last' in front of it is usually bitter. Then you think about the amount of fun you had, the laughters you shared, it's never going to happen again. It's almost like burying someone or something, knowing that I'll be gone forever.

This, is my PJ teacher for this year.

The awesomest PJ teacher I (or we?) ever had.

She asks for a lot, but I guess she's the only teacher that will bother to take the trouble to bring us jog around  the school neighbourhood, and let us dig holes and build fires.

Some people just enjoy running, don't they?

;P

She looks like Barbie =)

C: You screw with me I'll knock you cold with the shovel.

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It's NOT our fault that the tent looked like some old fashioned TV okay.

The skeleton was all screwed like oghofithweiof.

To make it stand, you'd need a wand.

Normal tents.

But we're not cavegirls right? 

We don't need to succeed in building tents, except for C.

YUMMMM!!!!!

Dammit I'm hungry again.

Next step: Press the crackers together.

And POOOFFFFF

Cook, food, COOK!!!

Honestly, this didn't work cuz the carbon kept sticking to the surface of the food and the fishballs came out grey in colour.

But we did some troubleshooting by wrapping the food in foils before throwing them into the hole.

Yes yes the fire's big enough now quick press capture

She was first to cross the checkered flag, so hence, champagne shower.

You keep me from cooking these crab sticks, I'll poke you dead with these daggers.

Carmen with marsh-sticks.

Fluffy and soft and sweet.

Marshmallows are the substitution of love when you're alone, the icing topping when you feel loved and happy and everything nice.

The headmaster came poking around for food.

Everybody, stop and stare!

Oh no picnic mat? No biggie.

C and I innovating with nature.

She's like the most camera-shy person I've ever seen XD

Nobody cared that the ground was wet, or it was hot, or the smoke smelled like burnt turkey.

Cuz there was a big shady tree and a group of awesome people.

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Corn?

HJ trying to be more attractive than the corn.

Obviously, she failed.

Trying to do the sparkle thing...

Failed...

Slightly better?

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The face of people eating a marshmallows roasted to perfection.

That pair of shoes sitting in a pile of leaves 

At the corner of the field

Torn and worn

Never to be loved again

LOL

Too excited to eat. Screw putting down the tongs.

Trying to act all pretty-girl-waiting-for-her-prince-in-a-abandoned-park.

NAH YOUR PROFILE PICCHA AHH

Naw, it looks better without the girl.

Peace.

Can't see Pn Chong's face!!! 

Okay we suck at jumping shots XP

So candid!!!

I see the future ;) 

Kept smiling at this picture. Can't help it.

This too =D

Legs all itching from the grass...

AAAA

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IIII

OOOO

U (Hui Yi smiling) UU

Sparkling juice advertorial #1

Sparkling juice advertorial #2

Sparkling juice advertorial #3

That rock HJ is sitting on, it's like it's specially carved for the human butt.

Seriously, it fits perfectly.

Bruce Lee BISHHHAAABOOOMMM

Le MX trying to defend.

I still win =)

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PREPARE FOR AWESOMENESS OVERLOAD:::

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Really, we should submit this to some world peace organisation and maybe they'll print this into a banner or something.

I have no idea why we can be so random sometimes...

Hold on to me, just a few more steps, and we shall be saved!!!

I can show you the world, shinning shimmering splendid...

Le me trying to camwhore with the giant cam...

Getting slightly better.

Her skin is flawlesssss!!!!!

Lol.

What?

Le Chew Chew our maths and add maths teacher.

Like a boss memang.

HEHEHEHEHEHE!!!!!!!

*Insert evil smirk*

5 (awesome) S 7

HJ with the Chinese teacher.

*sobs sobs*

:'(

HY shall be deeply missed.

Ze camera-shy class teacher =D

Yeah, so that's it. It's really hard, when it comes to choosing which picture to upload and which to not upload cuz there're just too many awesome candids in the memory card like @)&!*@$*()-!!! 

Back to the study world. 

Peace out.