I'd fly you to the stars and back again

m i s s

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basically how I feel everyday

It's like I've been living on memories these days, looking forward to the future memories to be made. Everyday, I wonder why I'm here and not there. Everyday, I wish I was there. 

Missing someone is a strange feeling. For me, it's not about the companionship. I'm fairly okay about being alone. In fact, I've grown to feel comfortable being alone, I've learnt to appreciate this silence, after 18 months of living with people of my age. It's those moment, when I experience something, and have the urge to turn around for attention, and ask if you saw it. It's those times, when I'm smiling like an idiot and I wish you were as happy too. It's wanting you to be a part of everything, to experience the same feelings, to see the details. It's complex. But it's there.

But I've also learnt how distance can change things. Yes, it's like a gamble, and there are plenty of times where people lose to the spaces between them. For me, distance is more of a teacher. I've learnt to appreciate and cherish the moments when we have each other. It's a test. If you hold on, you know what you really want. Nobody will take the trouble to invest such immense effort in something they don't truly desire. It's evidence of strength, of faith and of trust.

I don't even know how I came out with this entry. But it's almost midnight. So nights.