We breathe in

And without breathing out, we breathe in some more.

My English tuition teacher asked me a question that had me speechless.

We were discussing about college and the future, and she asked, "Why must you go for January intake? What's the rush???'

I just stared at her, surprised that I couldn't construct a sensible answer. I know, we all say that we don't want to waste time and stuff like that, but seriously, that answer is just weak. Who says that not going to school is a waste of time? What if that 6 month of do-nothing can actually let me know, for sure, what I really want to become? Cuz Im very convinced that if a person is given half a year or stress-free life, they'll change, from inside out. Maybe for the better, maybe for the worse, but its definitely worth the try.

Im not saying that I'll quit January intake. I don't think I will, cuz Im the kia shu type of person that can't stand too much of do-nothingness. But IF Im given 6 month time of freedom, there's really so much I can do. Go stay in some family friend's house overseas, charity, work, volunteering work, churches, temples, children hospitals... Or just try to pick up art and craft for the 36289191th time. Retake Grd 8 music. The list is so so long.

Seriously, what's the rush?? No one cares that you're a year behind your age group when you start working. To tell the truth, I'd rather spend my next 10 years studying than working my ass off. Society is so cruel, and school is like a heaven. Warm and welcoming.

I have no idea what Im trying to suggest here, but it's worth thinking about.

I told my parents and boy, did they overreact... And I was there like 'Maaaa, its just a question!!!!'

I think they thought that their daughter didn't want to study anymore. And my mom insited that people should go work earlier, earn a lot and retire earlier. What the hell????

The earliest you can retire ( not because of rich husband factor) is like at age 40?? That's the EARLIEST!! And by age 40, you're practically half ancient. You can't do damn lots of stuff without looking crazy. For teenagers, we have some unwritten pass to be insane and go out of control and nobody can judge us cuz we're young and naive. We can make mistakes and get away with it. But when you're half ancient, touch have to be sensible and responsible and realistic. That ain't fun at all.

Besides, who says that I'll make it to 40 years old? Get real, people die every day. So it might happen. I don't want to be like 'Omg I haven't even lived my life yet...' the second before I get hit by a truck or when my plane goes up in flame or ... That's just really sad. Don't you think so?

Again, there's no hidden messages in this post. Just merely speaking my thoughts.

Think.